What I wanted to say to you

"I need to tell you something."

Is what I thought

But then I get anxious

And couldn't find that opportunity

Because it's just me

Thinking that there's something still there

A faint hope

or a visible confusion

Even though time is almost up

An ending like that? 

No.

Even if the bridge is burned

We move on

But

I still wanted to let you know

How I felt

It's stupid because I'm worrying so much

Over thinking so much

Just like you said

Right?

"I've been a shitty friend to you."

But that wasn't the entire story

Because I thought you also

Gave up as well

There's no apologies

Because you're not at fault

At least we can agree on that

Even if you don't show it

I didn't show it either

The connection we had
 Is a concept that I

I

Wanted to understand.

"Even if I hold merit to you or not."

Because that's how it works

It makes sense to me

Did I lose that merit you saw in me

Back then?

I'm sorry.

But even so

"I got you back."

I can't let go of that fact

It's something that I

Can't let go

Letting go would deny

That history we've had together

Up until that point
So please don't think otherwise
At least for a moment
That you do know the end
Is approaching
But the merit you saw in me
Was cherished briefly
Right now
"I wanted to let you know that."